Hello 2011!

Goodbye 2010! Hello 2011! Last year was truly tumultuous and I hope that this year will prove to be better. I resigned from work last year and applied in a new company. I enjoy my work very much despite the low salary I am getting. But hey, I am not complaining since the workload is not that heavy. I enjoy coming in to work because there is definitely less stress (you don't know how tense I was when I was still working for my previous company, its no fun talking to complaining customers!) and I like most of the people in our office.

I guess it is common for people to have a New Year's resolution so I think it is only right that I post mine here. Let me give you 10 of my resolutions for this year.

1. Try to be less serious, learn to enjoy more- I am always worrying about this and that and honestly, for most of the time it is something really trivial and beyond my control. I want to enjoy my youth while I still have it. 
2. Lose weight, I mean REALLY! - I know its a pretty common resolution and one that often gets broken but I am really SERIOUS about this. I am going to be slimmer this year since being chubby isn't really helping out my image and I want to be healthy and all that stuff. 
3. Improve my looks - I have posted on my blog before that I want to change my hair color, eye color, etc. and I may still do that depending on how my mood goes. But most definitely I want to start looking better and stop looking so boring. 
4. Be more smart with money, be more thrifty! - I am an impulsive buyer :-(  Most of the time, I buy these really useless junk and my budget suffers as a consequence. I want to be more analytical and wise in money matters and I will try to remember that its not how many you own but its how much you keep.  :-)
5. Be less bitchy, be more friendly! - I am sorry but I enjoy being a bitch for too long. :-) By bitchy, I mean that I am too opinionated and I don't take crap from anyone. I could sometimes come across as bossy and snobby but that's all going to change (little by little). That doesn't mean that I am going to let people walk all over me (just let me see them try!) but I will make a concentrated effort to be sweeter and nicer even though I feel like scratching some people's eyes out.
6. Go to church more often - I am a very prayerful person but there are times (specifically Sundays) that I fail to hear mass. I will have to make it a point that I go to mass every Sunday since I don't work anyway on that day and its my way of thanking God for taking care of me and my family.
7. Smile more! - I don't smile a lot because I think that I look better if I don't smile because my face creases up every time I flash a grin. I know it sounds weird but that's the way I look at it.
8. Catch up on my reading and finish my cross-stitch - I don't get to read too much nowadays and I truly miss it. I bought so many books too and they're just gathering dust in my room. I have to pick up on my cross stitch especially since my friend Denzyl gave me this pretty Barbie cannister lunch box for Christmas and I used it to store all my thread. 
9. Update my blog regularly - I love my blog and I really want to have as many followers as I can. That's why I have to find ways to make my blog more exciting and interesting to my readers.
10. Be a better child to my parents, a good sibling to my brother and sisters, and a good friend - I think this doesn't need any explanation. I want to show my parents how happy I am that they raised me and my siblings the best they could, especially my Mommy who is always there to support me. To my dear brother and sisters, I am sorry if your "kuya" is sometimes like a frivolous butterfly but I promise to improve myself so hang on there! To my friends, well what more can I say? I am always here when you need me.

I was going to include that I should have a new boyfriend this year but how can I make sure of that? Its not as if I achieve that without the help of someone (i.e my crush) and I don't know how that would happen since I am so shy and I don't even know his name!

Wow this post is so long already! Before I close this, here are the gifts I received this Christmas:

My office colleague, Ronald Gow, gave me this shawl and I am currently using it in the office.

My sister, Marie Chit, gave me this lovely Barbie notebook

My office colleague and friend Denzyl gave me this shopping bag. I love the message.

Denzyl also gave me this lunch box. I like it.

Marie Fay, one of my sisters, gave me this bed sheet which I will definitely use.

Enjoy and Happy New Year again!

Charmedwishes...
Blessed be!

I'm Back (From Out of Space)

 Hello guys! I am back! Finally, our PC is fixed (again) and I could update my blog once more. I missed my blog. So how is everything? How come my followers did not multiply to a hundred when I logged in? (I wish :-) ) Anyway, I am really excited to start posting stuff here and I wish I took a note of everything that was going through my mind while our PC was down. Which reminds me how neglectful I am in writing in my diary. Well, first thing's first.

As soon as I get hold of my family's Christmas celebration, you can be sure that I will posting the pictures here. Our celebration this year was fairly simple. We just had spaghetti, friend chicken, and garden salad. The nice thing is that our neighbors gave us some of their own food so our food increased until we couldn't possibly eat all of it. :-) Fortunately, the food given to us are the sort that won't spoil easily. So we just stashed it inside our fridge and I guess we will be eating it for the next few days until new year.

Sadly, the company I work for decided that we will have a shift on the 31st of December. You can't imagine how crestfallen I was when I heard this. I was really excited to celebrate New Year with my family since I haven't been able to do so since time immemorial. My mother just told me that I should just be thankful that I have work since many people don't have my good fortune. I guess she's right, I mean how can I complain when I have so many blessings already?

I am in the process of redecorating my bedroom and once again, I will post some pictures once I have them available. :-) I am soooo excited!






Charmedwishes...
Blessed be!

First Chris Kringle

We had our first Chris Kringle earlier today. For those who are not aware what a Kris Kringle is, its exchanging gifts with someone but usually there's a theme associated with it. Our theme for this week was "Something Funny". I wanted my gift to be really original so I came up with a plan. The name I picked has a Facebook account so I was able to browse through his pictures. His name is Jebonnie Miralles but he hates his name and prefers to be called Bhenj. This is his picture:

I knew that most of my co-workers would just buy whatever stuff that was readily available to give to their Monito/Monita (that's what we call those whom we picked) and I was not about to do that. I wanted my gift to be REALLY special, something not usually given in parties. However, we have a budget for the gift which is 50.00 pesos (that is just more than a dollar) so we have to be smart about the way we spend our money. Finally, I though of a unique gift. A fabulously, different, and hilarious gift.

I am not an artist, nor am I computer savvy, but I do have some knowledge of certain sites where we could modify and make crazy frames for ordinary (sometimes boring) pictures. So I thought, hey I could take a picture from Bhenj's facebook account and then mess around with it. So tongue in cheek, I copied whatever picture I could get my hands (or cursor) on and started to work.

Now it was really tricky since most of the picture he had were not right for the project. He was either facing sidewards or his angle was off. Anyway, here are the pictures that I ended up putting on a frame. LOL.

I couldn't help laughing especially with the naked people using Bhenj's picture to cover their crotch! The jailed for being emo picture wasn't so bad either, in my opinion. But I thought, what if he gets offended instead of amused? But I killed that thought as quickly as it came since I really wanted something nice and special to give him. I am not sure about the nice part, but it is special for me.

Here are the pictures that didn't quite make it to the frame but I had printed anyway. I gave the pictures to Bhenj, of course.

Anyway, so today came and we were all giving each other's gifts. I was surprised when some people actually gave funny and USEFUL gifts like a t-shirt with a funny slogan on it. I wish I could have thought of that, at least the t-shirt he could still use and all. He did laugh though and it turns out that he picked MY name also and he gave me these cute coin pouch and this lovely pen. He knew I liked Sanrio Characters and the color pink. Awwww, so sweet!

I felt kinda bad because I realized that he may not have liked my gift. Maybe he was just being polite? I just bought 2 cheap frames and placed in these kind of embarrassing pictures. Then he was thoughtful enough to buy me something that actually made me SMILE for real. Oh well, there's always the next time.I will make it up to him.
Charmedwishes...
Blessed be!

Moonstruck Madness: Nevemoon

Hello! I decided to change do little changes with my blog. Maybe its actually a big change, it depends on how you look at it. I got the blog name "If Wishes Were Wings" from an old adage "if wishes were wings, beggars will fly". I feel that I almost have all my wishes granted. To ask for more may be too selfish. Right now, honestly, I can say that I am happy. It is impossible to be happy all the time, but most of the time I am content with my lot. Anyway, my new blog url is nevemoon.blogspot.com

Now you may be wondering where the word "Neve" came from. Its actually derived from the Spanish word "nieve" which means "snow". I love the snow. I mean, I don't live in a particularly cold place and it doesn't snow here in the Philippines, but I know I don't like the heat of the sun. I like it when the weather is cold and it is really dark outside, the sun is covered by dark clouds and the wind is blowing hard. For me, its romantic and exciting. Neve is also a type of snow that forms glaciers. I would like to think that I chose I name that is responsible for those large monoliths.

The moon to me is everything mysterious and magical. I like gazing at the moon. It relaxes me and it is my dream to walk along a lake with the moon reflected on its surface, sort of like the ballet "Swan Lake". Its so wonderful. I read this book by Laurie McBain years ago with the title "Moonstruck Madness" and I feel that the title fits my blog too. LOL. I am not especially mad but you have to admit my blog content are both unusual and idiosyncratic.

I may make more changes in the upcoming days. As they say, nothing is constant in this world but change. I do hope all the changes I make are for the better though.

Now please enjoy this music video. I have been listening to it for a few days now. You could say I am hooked. :-)




Charmedwishes...
Blessed be!

Scarlet Snow

"I wish I never met you," Roselle said in a voice filled with hatred as she stared darts at Ashgary. They were both inside a small cottage, winter has fallen and it was white all over.

Ashgary looked at Roselle and smiled wryly.

"C'mon hon, you don't really mean that. Don't tell me you didn't enjoy it."

"You pig!" Roselle screamed. "I trusted you! I thought you loved me. Now what am I going to do with this baby? I left my boyfriend for you, I can't raise this baby alone!"

"Get rid of it then. We both don't want it," Ashgary said nonchalantly. "You knew I was already married. So don't say I gave you any false hopes."

"I hate you! You're not getting away with this!"

Roselle started to hit Ashgary on the face in a fit of rage. The man attempted to defend himself and in doing so, accidentally pushed Roselle aside. The woman hit the side of the bed with a loud clunk, her whole body screaming with pain. They were both shocked when they saw blood gushing down from Roselle's legs.

"I- I'm sorry. This is not my fault," Ashgary stammered, panic written all over his face.

"Help me, Ash. Oh please, don't let our baby die!"

Ashgary started to pick up Roselle from the floor. He wasn't prepared for the knife she had hidden in her dress. Quick as a snake, she started stabbing Ashgary on the neck, soon red was mixed with the whiteness of snow. Ashgary made a gurgling sound and slumped dead on the floor.

"You'll never leave me, Ashgary. I love you too much..." Roselle whispered as life slowly drained from her own body.

Soon both their blood turned the snow scarlet. Crows circled the cottage, signalling death...

(Well, a dark twist to another innocent looking picture. :-) I need to put on more emotion, I think. My kind of writing is way too stilted. Please click this link to visit Magpie Tales)
Charmedwishes...
Blessed be!

New Look

I am thinking of dyeing my hair. I always had dark brown hair and I have always wondered if a change of hair color would improve my looks a little. I must admit that I am a little insecure about my appearance. I mean, I am kind of chubby and I wear glasses. I have been hanging out with these 2 gorgeous girls from work and it made me realize that I also need to look my best so I wouldn't look like a FUGLY (in case you didn't watch MEAN GIRLS starring Lindsay Lohan, fugly means "friends who are ugly"). Although I know that its kind of shallow and my friends doesn't mind being with me considering how I looked, deep within me I recognize that I have to do this for myself.

Anyway, here's my picture. This was taken a few months ago. I am holding our family dog, Sweetheart:

Here's the hair color that I want:

This shade is called Chestnut Brown

Do you think it will suit me? My mom said that I will need to have my hair bleached first so I could achieve the hair color I want. My hair is not a virgin, I already had it dyed before but I always chose dark brown, something really subtle that people don't really notice I dyed my hair at all. If ever, this will be the first time I would color my hair with something extremely noticeable.

Now let's go to my eyes. I am near-sighted and I have to wear glasses almost all the time. Most people say that I look older because of my glasses and when I do take them off, they say that they never noticed before how pretty my eyes are. LOL. Of course, I will feel all giddy and flattered when they say that. Which leads me to the topic of contact lenses. I have been planning to use contact lenses for the LONGEST time but my mother is kind of against it. She says its just a waste of money since a pair would only last me for a year, tops. Also, it is kind of expensive compared to glasses and it is so high maintenance since I need eye solution and I couldn't wear glasses for more than 8 hours, I think.  This is how I look with glasses on. I am holding my niece, Yannah.

I have long debated on which color I want to use on my eyes. I finally narrowed it down to three:

Violet Eyes

Gray Eyes

Ruby Eyes

I know the last one is kind of weird. I am sure you are kind of thinking "Why would he want to have red eyes?" I was actually inspired by this anime, Jigoku Shoujo (translates as "Hell Girl"), and I kind of idolize her so I want to copy her style a little bit. I realize its kind of a nerdy thing to do and I probably would look like a demon possessed me,but hey, what have you. So what do you think?

Now let me get write about my weight. :-) I am considerably chubbier than last year and some of my clothes doesn't fit me anymore. This is really frustrating for me. I cannot go to the gym because I am not allowed by my doctor to do strenuous activities. The only option would be to go on a diet. The sad part is no matter how much resolve I have not to eat, I just couldn't help pigging out on hamburgers, fries, pizza, fried chicken. spaghetti, ice cream, chocolates, and did I mention hamburgers? Oh yes, I did.

Last Friday, my family and I went to the Mall of Asia in Pasay to do a little shopping. Of course, we got a little hungry walking around shopping so we decided to eat at KFC (Kentucky Fried Chicken). My mother just had a Twister with a Banana Yogurt Krusher, my sisters had small burgers with small fries and diet Coke, while I had

KFC Double Down Burger (no bread, 2 slices of chicken, with cheese, bacon, and other fatty things)

Large Fries

Strawberry Yogurt Krusher

A small Wow Burger (I finished eating earlier than my mom and sisters so to pass the time, I ordered another burger)

A Twister (actually only half of it since my mother couldn't finished her's)

Sigh. Yes, I know this doesn't look like what a person who is supposedly on a diet should eat. I just couldn't help it. I had absolutely no willpower when it comes to food. I envy those people who could stuff their faces until they burst but still had the figure of a ramp model. Unfortunately, I am the type whose body shows every single gram of fat that I have munched on.

Oh, did I mention that we ate at Mang Inasal's (its a popular restaurant which serves grilled chicken here in the Philippines) before we went home? We got hungry again after shopping and we ate the following:

Mang Inasal Grilled Chicken with Unlimited Rice

Just thinking about our foodtrip makes my mouth water. I am such a gluttonous pig. Oh well, I guess it will be a long time before I get this kind of body especially with the Christmas Season coming out:

This picture is of Sam Concepcion. Credit goes to Mykikuru Isyusero. Isn't he cute?

So there, that's it. Anyway, I could deal with dieting later. Maybe I will have more willpower next year, but the hair color definitely I could do now. I will post some pictures here after I have it done. Well, thanks for reading this far. :-) Feel free to give me any comments you like, whether it be positive, negative, or even neutral.
Charmedwishes...
Blessed be!

Thanksgiving

Happy Thanksgiving! Actually, here in the Philippines, we really don't celebrate Thanksgiving. Maybe we should have our own version of Thanksgiving or maybe we shouldn't just assign a date specifically for that. Why not make every day a Thanksgiving day? I believe that we have a lot to be thankful for. We can thank God for giving us a roof over our head, food that we eat, and for the family that cares for us and loves us. You only have to watch and listen to the news to know that some people have less than that.

I admit that there were occasions when I was less than grateful for the blessings I have and I feel so much discontent. For example, the status of my  love life. Although I pretend to my friends that I am happy being single and that I don't need a man to make me happy, STILL it would be nice to have someone to love me whom I also love. Though I do have my family around me who gives me love, there is another kind of love that I crave.

I have faith though, that someday someone will love me the way I always wished to be loved and I will love him with all of my heart. But for now, let me thank God for all the blessings He gave me and I promise I will share my blessings to others.


Charmedwishes...
Blessed be!

The Cup of Shadows

The Cup of Shadows Draws Near

Filling My Mind With Fear.

Shadows Swirling, Thoughts Churning

Eyes Darkened By Loathing.

Goodbye, My Love, My Only One

I Hope You'll Miss Me When I'm Gone.

The Memory of Your Kiss Upon My Lips

The Feel of Your Skin On My Fingertips.

Curtains Are Drawn, Candles Alight

Prayers Said, No One In Sight.

My Spirit Now Freed From My Body

My Only Wish Is That You Loved Me.

(Note: I'm sorry about that this poem is substandard. I promise I will try to do better next time. This poem is kind of depressing, well that what came out of my mind. Please click this link.)





Charmedwishes...
Blessed be!

The POX On You!

My poor colleague, we will just call her "M", wouldn't be able to report to the office for 2 weeks because she has chicken pox. I remember the time I had it, believe me, it was HORRIBLE! I got it during the summer so I didn't have to miss school. My siblings and I spent our vacation in the province, I recall, and I was the last one to have chicken pox. We had to ride a bus going to Bicol and at that time the tiny bumps were becoming really red and noticeable.

I did everything to avoid being sighted by anyone on the bus. If the conductor knew that I had chicken pox, I am sure he wouldn't have allowed me to ride. LOL, who knew if I actually infected someone in that bus back then? Anyway, I made sure I was always covered up with a towel, it looked like I was wearing a cloak. When we finally reached Bicol, some of our relatives went to pick us up. When one of my aunts saw me, her eyes got wide and she screamed "UTOS" which was the vernacular for chicken pox in Bicol. I almost died of embarrassment. Some of the passengers heard and they looked at me with horror in their faces. Luckily, we left the terminal soon after that.

The next 2 weeks that followed were typically HELL. I couldn't bathe (it was believed that if you get wet, your pustules will leave a mark on your skin) and I itched all over. It was a wasted summer. When I was finally allowed to bathe, the shampoo wouldn't even create suds! I guess its because my hair was too dirty. Bummer!

I hope you weren't too grossed out by my story. I guess I couldn't help but reminisce about that awful period in my life after finding out M's condition. You can visit her blog by clicking this link.


Note: The picture I used is from her blog. :-) I just edited it a bit to fit the topic. LOL.

Charmedwishes...
Blessed be!

The Undertaking

Please check out this website this link : http://www.facebook.com/The.Undertaking . You can also enter and join the competition they have and get the chance to win an iPAD or a Iphone 4. The movie sounds cool, I will definitely watch it once it hits the theaters here in Manila. Anyway, we were asked this question "What scares you the most?" If you have visited my blog before, you should know that this is a topic I am extremely fond of. So here's my entry:

" I am very scared of CRAZY PEOPLE. Back in year 2000, my family and I moved to the province because my father wanted to start a business there. The area my parents picked happened to be one of the places where a lot of people who are insane resides (I heard that incest was rampant in the area, that could be a factor why people are losing their mind and giving birth to babies not entirely right up there). Anyway, I was reading on my bed one day when without warning this crazy woman who was known in the area for being violent suddenly entered my room and sat on my bed beside me. I don't know how she got inside our house. SHE STARED AT ME WITHOUT BLINKING FOR ALMOST 15 FREAKING MINUTES! I couldn't speak, I couldn't move, I was stricken on the spot because I was so scared that she has a knife on her body and she would suddenly hack me into ribbons. It was a stroke of luck that my younger sister suddenly came in and when she saw the crazed woman on my bed, she called my father and he threw her out of the house. I was so HAPPY when we went back to Manila. I could never forget that experience and I get so freaked out when I am approached by anyone who looks demented (i.e. vagrants, etc). That's all."

That was a TRUE story, by the way. My family could vouch for it. Ugh, just thinking about it gives me the shivers. Here are some entries I also liked:

The Undertaking

Hi everyone, it's Admin sharing a personal experience :) This has happened to me quite a few times - I wake up in the middle of the night from a deep sleep and simply cannot move. It feels like something (or someone) is sitting on my chest and I can't breathe and cannot find my voice to scream. It's the SCARIEST thing ever!!! Completely immobilized and paralyzed and the darkness around me seems to inhale/exhale with my fear. I'm sure there's a scientific explanation for it (chest cramps??) but it's super freaky!

Justin Chieng Not too long ago I attended a funeral, which was really strange as the procession kinda started out at midnite,with all the creepy hell notes and funeral music going around....woke up in a cold sweat after realising it was pretty freaky dream/nightmare...

James Pau

This happened to me a wee while ago and is the scariest thing for two reasons: a) the experience remains vividly burned into my mind and b) the effects have left me scarred and with a mild case of paranoia. It was nearing darkness and I was in Tokyo by myself and heading back to my hotel, when I encountered an old man. The man addressed me in Japanese and was gesticulating wildly at a payphone. He was close enough to me that I could detect the scent of beer on his breath and see extraneous spittle collecting at the corners of his mouth and flicking off onto his cheeks and the surrounding area. I don't know Japanese so I thought he might have been wanting money to use the phone, which I would have been inclined to give him. However, through a serious of broken exchanges and primitive sign language, he managed to figure out I spoke English and I determined that he did not want to use the phone. He then began to make friendly small talk by asking me things such as "Where are you from?" and "Do you go to school?", which are reasonably normal questions to ask. He then proceeded to ask me my age and whether I played sports. At this point, I was beginning to get a little restless and wanted to continue on my way, so I was hoping to end the conversation quickly and said "No, I don't currently play sports," (although I have in the past). The man looked surprised and grabbed my right bicep, giving it a couple of squeezes while inquiring if I was sure. He then bent down and did the same to my right calf. Now more than a little freaked out, I wanted to determine the reason the man had stopped me in the first place and asked him, "Are you ok? Can I help you with anything?". The man lent in close, and whispered in his beer-laced breath, "I am homosexual..." I do not know where he was going with that but I didn't want to hear anymore and basic flight instinct took over (I certainly wasn't going to fight). I shouted a horrified "NOOOOO!" and ran and hid in a nearby convenience store. There, I cowered and shook in an aisle until the man was gone and hastily returned to the safety of my hotel, from then on to be suspicious and paranoid of old men in Japan... T_T

DISCLAIMER: It is not my intention to offend or imply that members of the gay community or the elderly are scary in general. What IS scary, is this isolated combination of being randomly touched and felt in a foreign country by a man several times my age, who made his intentions clearer much too late in the chance encounter.

Dede Poetra The scariest thing that has ever happened to me is met a spirit cursed dead that still haunted the world for just taking revenge because for what he had done during his lifetime, waiting for someone to put end to his misery.......

Dan Nabo

It happened a few years ago when me and my wife tried to sleep in the living room together with our nieces. We were so tired that day but we have to take care of the kids since their parent's not around, so we stay up a little late. when it is our time to take a rest, we saw a shadow of not so tall at the back of the TV set (w/c is the way to our bathroom and kitchen), we thought we're just so tired and now we are seeing things. I don't know how many hours have passed but after i felt i was re-charged, when i opened my eyes i saw a woman dressed in black and her hair was a little frizzy in front and was staring at me (like she wants to kill me.) then i want to get up but i couldn't. i can't move, so i said to myself this is just a dream, then afterwards i can't breathe too. thoughts in my mind says that i could die, so i tried to do what they say is the best thing to do when having nightmares, I tried moving my finger on my foot (the little one) but still i can't. Good thing i have this prayer (in LATIN) about casting out bad entities. then i started chanting it for like three times then tried moving my finger again and i did!!!! I felt like there's an electricity flowed on my body for a second then the woman in black disappeared. After that I woke up gasping for air and was all in sweat. I will not forget this horrifying nightmare!!! EVER!!!!!

Jay C. Trinidad Jr

It happened several years ago when my friends and I were hanging around an open field at around 230am. After an hour or so, we all decided to call it a night. As I started by car and began to turn the car around so that I could make it to the road, I suddenly saw a young girl step in front of the headlights of my car as if bracing herself from being hit. I immediately stepped on the brakes with me holding the steering wheel tight. My bestfriend who was in the car with me asked me why i suddenly stepped on the brakes and I simply asked him whether or not I ran over a litttle girl. He asked me to stop kidding around since the area where we were was known for ghost sightings. I told him I wasnt kidding and I told him that I had to check whether or not I really did run over a small girl. I stepped out and went in front of the car but there was no sign of a girl having been there...

Ricky Nomoore Hammet when I was 7 years old, I was sleeping near the window, somehow all of a sudden the windows open and I was awakened by the wind that comes in, I saw a pair of red eyes look at me like going to stab my eyes, it was so real, and I'm sure it's not dream.

Charmedwishes...
Blessed be!